Fourth time

Again, I was so tired and my brain did not work at all. I lay down for a rest and I just work up now. He was again in my black dream. It was telling how much I want to get close to him, yet, he was gone.

What the hell it was! Can't I kick him out of my brain? I need to focus on my studies. I knew that I did not face the relationship directly, meanwhile, I was expecting something. The feeling was so strong at that time and I was cheating myself.

I hided my feeling from his which has influenced me greatly. I have not seen him since I was gone. Oh!No, it just happened to be one time in the morning. He was just on FB for seconds, but we did not talk much.

Well, I really need to concentrate on my dissertation. How can I control myself and leave him away?