A joke in my life...

It is midnight already, but I haven't took a shower and planned to go to bed yet. I am really tired out, but I sit in front of my desk and type. Recently, I haven't slept well. And, last night I had a nightmare again. It is true. I feel like I am helpless. But, not exactly. Well, the problem is that this is my final year in university, but I can't go smoothly to the USA for advanced studies in Fall 2007. I know the problem is not as terrible as it would be. I know I can make a change. However, I am anxiety, unstable and massy. Damn! I have to spend one more year getting ready. I did turn to others. Some said I can still enter school in Fall 07, others said it will be better for me in Fall 08. Well, I don't care much about what year I will enroll, I am worried how much I could improve TOEFL within 10 months. You might want to laugh at me when you have read so far. How stupid I am! How could I make myself so unhappy? And, how could I….No,NO, NO! I should ask myself HOW COULD I IMPROVE TOEFL. Though I am not the top one in class, I still have excellent academic performance. What I need is to take a rigorous exam to prove my English capability. It is not a hard work. I got 66 last time. But the schools I want require 80. 80 is the minimum requirement...I should have the passage go on, but I'd better stop here. I guess I don’t make myself clear to you, but it is fine. It is a story of a girl named Sonia. You don’t have to be as confused as she is. What you have to do now is to enjoy the following article.


Choices
Some people sit - some people try.
Some people laugh - some people cry.
Some people will - some people won't.
Some people do - some people don't.
Some people believe and develop a plan.
Some people doubt - never think that they can.
Some people face hurdles and give it their best.
Some people back down - when faced with a test.
Some people complain of their miserable lot.
Some people are thankful for all that they've got.
And when it's all over - when it comes to an end
Some people lose out and some people win.
We all have a choice - We all have a say.
We are spectators in life, or we get in and play.
Whatever we choose - how we handle life's game.
The choices are ours - no one else is to blame.