Did I miss anything?

How could my heart somehow be broken? I had made decision to join two scouting activities in spring,but I changed my mind for another matter when summer came _studying for the whole summer.
My scoutmates shared their pictures with me just now.Then, my heart turned out to be broken. Did I miss anything though I've made the TOEFL scores improved enough to pass graduation requirement (one of the studying purposes) so far ?
"Follow your heart!"I've heard the word for a thousand times.Could one's heart direct a direction? What do you think a "brain?" A friend of mine told me that when love comes everything becomes not so important. I used to be confused and I can't realize what she said. However, I found nothing seem to be significant than my goal even the boy! He told me that it would be easy to see each other if I were in the States. Boy! "I go to the USA for my studies,not you." I didn't tell him so because it must hurt him. At least, I knew he want to see me. Anyway,I'm sure that falling in love somewhat makes a person blind.
Have you ever suffered from too many choices to choose? Or, do you prefer no choice to choose?How can a decision effect a person's life? Could you contribute a story?
I want to play and to be loved. Does it account for "enjoy" in a manner of speaking? I study for my future,but I have no idea how and what my future will be. I like the feeling of being successful. To be honest, I'm much happier when I heard praises from my professors than my boy. Sorry,friends. I can't hang around with you for the sake of my own insistence. Sorry,boy! You do take my heart away,but my brain still remains.
DidI miss(lose) anything? I hope not. But, I do miss (think of) everything.