Not until yesterday did I doubt the goal that I have been holding on_studying abroad. I went to Center of International Education and Liaison and asked the chief for information.The chief is one of my professors when I was a freshman.For these 2 years,he was promoted to be a chief there.Well,he is a popular one though he is as strict as he could be.STRICT_that's the point. A strict teacher tells the truth and wakes dreamers up.We had some talks_ my further studies. "Get real and well-prepared." he said. "I am trying being real,but haven't got well-prepared yet." I had the word listened for myself only.
What is a graduate school for to me or even to others? If growth is painful,how could I overcome the confusion?Are you engaging in what you expected now?Take a look at the poetry below.It is the food for though.

The Road Not Taken
by Robert Frost (1874-1963 )

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads to way,
I doublted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Hang on or give up? Can I pass TOEFL and GRE in 6 months? My life is going to change after one year. And I have no idea about it…terrible!!