When the final exam was over... 期末考完後....

Finally,the final exam was over. I can't wait for the winter vacation. But..., I can't understand.Our winter vacation will last for four weeks. Some of my friends will go to Korea for Jamboree. Once I told them I also wanted to go there. However, I've decided to speand those short holidays learning Spanish and improving English ability for TOEFL (Test of English as a Foreign Language).It was very hard for mw to make a decision. One od them asked me why I won't go with them, I gave a smile as an answer.I can't understand why part of scout friends skip classes now and then for the purpose of the association. I'm proud of myself for never dropping out of any class though the bad ideas came to me several times. However, I never did."Study first, association second". It's always my belief for my university life. I know we have different life styles and I respect your choices.The winter vacation is very very short for me. I've longed for learning Spanish for months and I have free time now. Sorry,friends! I can't go with you. Going to Korea is what I want to do, but learning Spanish and English is what I have to do.Have a good time for you and me. See you!

一直以功課為重心的我,有個矛盾存在心理.雖然每個人的生活重心不一樣,但是很不能接受又人因打工或社團而翹課.是我的思想太保守,還是觀念太老舊?但一直以沒翹過課自豪,即使曾經有過這種想法,但我盡了學生應有的本分.每當社團的朋友問我為什麼沒去團集會,首先第一個觀念都會想"功課優先考量",不過我也很想問問他們"為啥你翹課去上社團?"這沒有固定的答案,每個人都有自己的生活,也謝謝社團裡的朋友體諒出席次數少的我.
參加國際活動需要有授銜的童子軍身分,無奈的我只是個見習生.社團有的人,利用了寒假考授銜去了.但是為了一直以來的夢想,我把寒假花在補托福上了,沒有娛樂,除了見見老朋友,陪陪家人,和以前的老師敘敘舊,似乎沒活動.一個月的假期真的太短了,要上四週才給予資格參加托福課程,因為年假及學校晚一星期放假原因,我必須利用三週上完四週的課.也就是說今天剛考完試,下星期一要上課去啦!其實這沒什麼,帶著期待的心,進入托福殿堂,編織我的理想.但....,今年寒假考不到授銜的我,身分無法晉級,不能代表台灣出席今年暑假暑假在英國舉行的國際童子軍活動.
我熱愛童子軍嗎?不是.只是喜歡在沒人熟識的環境下認識來自不同國家的人及認識自己.很舒服的感覺,也許有人覺得沒有安全感,但你會發覺你要"靠自己".曾經僅有一次這樣經驗過的我,有點眷戀這重感覺!
煩喔! 我要晉級童子軍的身分啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
對不起,衷於自我,選擇上課!
掰!下回見,不同的領域,我們各自會有所成長.
_________給身旁看得懂中文的朋友